No Fear!

Please Pray!

This week I’m going “live”, in the sense something has come up in life that is a bit frightening, and I’m going to need to remember all God has been teaching me.  This week’s “live” posts are to remind to me that I’m not doing this alone, and that God is fully aware and has already paved the way for his good plan for my family.

We found out yesterday that my son with autism has developed a condition where his platelet count is dropping – two blood tests in a row.  A bit of research last evening showed that some of his hefty daily concoction of meds can have this side effect, by causing his body to see his platelets as an enemy, and fight them as an invader.

I have enough medical background to know that platelets help the blood clot.  If your blood doesn’t clot, you bleed.  Right at this point in life, he can’t live without these meds.  They help him function as normally as possible.  We see a specialist this week, but already my brain and emotions want to go into full “what if” mode, mixed with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.

So, I’m asking those of you who follow Jesus to pray for us – for peace, calm, wisdom, and healing.  I want God’s plan, and I don’t want to freak out in the middle.

This morning I read a blog post from Proverbs 31 Ministries, by Katy KcCown, entitled, “When the Road Ahead Feels Uncertain“.  God’s timing is always perfect!  I liked it so much, I decided to subscribe.  As a gift I was sent 4 pages of Bible verses on dealing with fear!  I didn’t even know these would be coming!

 

These verses are excerpted from the list I received entitled:

“Power Promises to Fight Fear & Anxiety”

God, you did not give me a spirit of fear.  You gave me one of power.  ‘For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.’ 2 Timothy 1:7 (ESV)”

God, you say I should not fear.  You promise YOU are with me and will help me. ‘So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)”

God, you promise YOU are greater than anything I am dealing with. ‘Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.’ I John 4:4 (KJV)”

(For the full list, you will need to subscribe to Katy’s blog,”Katy KcCown, Laugh. Live. Faith.” .  The list will follow in your email inbox as her gift for subscribing.)

My plans to up-end fear today:  

Choose to dwell on What Is True about God, who stands with me.

Surround myself with prayer warriors who follow Jesus.

 

Thank you friends for doing this with me this week.

With love,

Robin<3

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A Most Faithful, Compassionate Ally

This past summer, I saw the faithfulness of God in a very intimate way.

I published a post last July entitled “I Do Matter“.  The article referred to a conversation with my now grown adopted son that came about because of a book I was reading entitled “The Primal Wound.” Through this book, I was learning many kids traumatized by adoption (even those adopted from birth), don’t consider their adoptive mom as “Mom”, because they somehow innately remember their birth-mom.  It made me wonder what Evan would say, and because of a comment he’d made weeks before stating I never let him tell the truth, God’s Spirit prompted me to give him the opportunity to be real. However, I wasn’t prepared for his answer.

His response of ‘no’ (I never considered you my mom) along with all I was reading brought to the surface such crushing pain as I hadn’t felt in years. In the middle of the swirling flow of emotions that followed, I began to lose sight of my Lord, and felt very alone. Unable to rise above the overwhelming waves, even Sunday worship, a time where I’d normally find great solace, became difficult. One Sunday as I attempted to worship, my eyes filled with tears, and in that moment, I sensed God’s presence intimately, and uniquely.  I knew he’d heard my pleas, and wanted me to know he was there.  He cared.

During a morning walk days later, I remembered words I’d heard on the radio that morning, “Maybe the battle you think you need to win isn’t without but within”. As I recounted those words, I prayed, “Lord, I understand you may want me to fight this battle rather than remove it.  But, if you would, please hold me right now.  If you don’t think that best, I understand.” Suddenly, as though God heaved his own pain-filled sigh, his voice inaudibly spoke, “My child, if you only understood I’ve been holding you all along.”

“My child, if you only understood that I have been holding you all along.”

God is a faithful, compassionate ally.

Isaiah 42:1-4 ““Look at my servant, whom I strengthen.
    He is my chosen one, who pleases me.
I have put my Spirit upon him.
    He will bring justice to the nations.
He will not shout
    or raise his voice in public.
He will not crush the weakest reed
    or put out a flickering candle.
    He will bring justice to all who have been wronged.
He will not falter or lose heart
    until justice prevails throughout the earth.
    Even distant lands beyond the sea will wait for his instruction. (NLT, emphasis mine)

Those verses were written hundreds of years before Christ was born, yet they speak of him.  They proclaim his compassionate faithfulness, even in the most desperate times.

My healing is coming slowly, and with it a depth of relationship with my faithful, compassionate ally that I never would have imagined.

Lord, I’ve seen your faithfulness, and know I’ll continue to see it.  Please, for those reading who feel like weak reeds nearly broken, and flickering candles nearly snuffed; reveal yourself as the one who never falters or loses heart as you care for your injured ones so compassionately.  Please show yourself faithful.  Thank you!  In Jesus’ name, amen.

With much love,

Robin <3