Attentively Waiting

20160810_234519_001-01I stirred at the smell of fresh coffee, and the clanging of pots and pans below. I smiled, wondering if my friend was doing what I thought she might be doing; but at the same time, concern filtering my delight at breakfast in bed.

She is known to do such things, but her exhaustion was was very apparent.  Weeks of sleeping on hospital cots and reviewing medical procedures covered her like a well worn coat, her son only having come home hours before I arrived less than 2 days ago.  In addition, an outpatient surgery early yesterday morning only added to her fatigue.

Sure enough, moments later a smile peered around the corner of my doorway, a tray laden with gifts preceding it.  Each bite was arranged beautifully on a delicate antique glass plate, with a silver-etched miniature urn full of cream completing the presentation fit for royalty.

She watched my face closely, fatigue etching her grin.  Her attentiveness to my every move awaited my pleasure, hoping that her gifts of love would be accepted with equal enthusiasm as they were given.

Today I am reminded of this vignette as I read the verse below:

Isaiah 40:31

“Yet those who wait for the Lord
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.” (Bible Gateway, NASB)

In my recent weariness of soul and spirit, longing for heavenly, otherworldly strength, I am drawn to this verse and it’s enticing promises; especially the first 7 words.

“Yet those who wait for the Lord….”

“Wait” in Hebrew means to attentively watch, to gather, to patiently wait.  As I read other verses using this particular Hebrew word, the picture of my friend’s attentiveness toward me takes shape in my mind.

How often do I go to God with a need, blurt out my plea, and quickly leave in order to try and remediate the situation on my own?  Afterward, crying that God obviously didn’t hear me; or if he did, he must not have cared.  Yet, I am arrested with the thought, “I will gain new strength from him only if I wait (attentive, alert, gathering all my perceptions to him alone, watching his every move for the answer) just as my precious friend waited upon me that memorable morning.

Because I desperately crave new strength, this week I have attempted to more fully wait upon my Lord.  This has not necessarily been easy, as the cares that worry and badger my mind and heart don’t easily give way.  Yet, as I have chosen to focus on my Lord, looking intently at him, his Word, and his promises rather than listening to the cacophony of blaring worries and fears, I am finding a peace emerge.

Gaining new strength.

Lessening emotional fatigue.

Growing peace

bringing calm internal rest.

Amazing rest.

With love and prayers,

Robin <3

p.s. You may also wish to read:  A Change of Mind  Caution, Emotions at Play!  I Do Matter!



13 thoughts on “Attentively Waiting

  1. Robin, I just wanted to add that I hope that whatever painful situation your family is in is improving or, if not, that you are receiving additional strength to bear it from the Lord. Please do not hesitate to share with me what is going on, but regardless of wether you feel like sharing more with me or not, please know that you and your family are in my prayers… –Timi 🙂

    1. Timi, that is so very kind! Because this is posted on Facebook, and many who know our family situation to some degree may read, I would rather at this time protect the privacy of those involved. I can say it is situations with our children. As a Mom, I know you can understand the pain that situations with your children can bring. Your prayers are greatly appreciated, and so is your kindness. My walk with my Lord Jesus, and the comfort of his Spirit are what keep me daily. God is amazingly faithful and we are seeing some small improvements this week!

  2. Love this post! I hope you will check out my latest post called Blessings on my blog Let Us Live Like We Mean It. I’d love to hear from you in the Comments about your own prayer habits, since we are both believers…. Especially I’d like to know if you listen for God’s response when you are praying, since you are focusing so intently on Him…

    1. Timi, I am so sorry that it has taken me so long to respond to your beautiful encouragement! Thank you. I will take a look at your post, and comment there. God bless!

    1. Thank you so much Peggy! I really appreciate the encouragement a lot. This has been an extremely hard summer for me and my family, the hardest for me since my first husband passed 8 years ago. God is doing a lot inside me right now, teaching me how to stand in him in the pain. It is neat that I am beginning to look at the situation that is still so painful with our sons, and yet begin to be able to see a glimmer of the really good stuff God is doing. The blogs are coming out of those glimmers. Thanks again for your encouragement, dear one.

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