There are times when days are so full of external pressures and added internal stresses, that I feel like I am involved way over my head. Yet, Jesus says that when my eyes are steadfast on him, and my heart is listening for his pulse for me – “way over my head” is just a lie.
“ For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13 (NLT) (emphasis added)
Right now is one of those times when life is extremely full, and it seems like almost daily I, and our family are being bombarded with one thing and another. Please don’t get me wrong. Some of the “bombardments” are wonderful things, like, I am pursuing a dream I’ve had for many years to write a Bible Study. It will be my first. I am also conducting the study as a Beta test at our church one night a week. I’m loving it very much – the time in preparation with God, the writing, and the interaction with these godly women! I’m getting some very encouraging feedback from it as well, for which I thank God. Yet, truthfully, it means long hours in front of the computer, with housework barely being touched week after week. That’s part of the price right now so that I can have time with my family in the evenings and accomplish the other duties that are also arising before me in fast pace. This is a beautiful problem, and as I said, the answer to a dream.
There are also some bombardments that are not so pleasant – wayward children who are keeping us on our knees praying and seeking God’s face – fighting on their behalf. A son who is ill, and losing weight rapidly, even though he is already so thin he can’t afford to lose any weight. Friends who are going through tragic circumstances, whom I want to be there with, to help shoulder their weight. Yet, the beauty in this is that we have a God who is mighty whom we can go to. He is one who hears our every cry and one who notes our every tear shed on their behalf. And the time we are needing to spend right now in prayer for each one of these battles, is also drawing us to the one who hears, and cares more than I can comprehend, and is able to answer. That’s beautiful!
When I hit times like this, I am learning that I must see each moment like the steps of a dance if I want to remain sane. Sashay to the right as I write the next lesson…. turn to the left as I attend the study and share the lesson….cross under my partner’s arm as I spend special time conversing with my husband after a long day…. 5 steps forward as I clean one toilet and sink…. 3 steps to the side as I weep for____________…. and land in my partner’s arms as I attend one more meeting to keep someone safe or healthy…,all the while listening to the voice of the Singer, my dear Jesus, as I lean into him and sense his every move for me. He alone knows the dance well, and when I look into his eyes, hear his song, and sense his next move – I sense that I am truly safe. Then the dance becomes beauty and relationship, rather than thrashing, confusion, and anxiety.
So, today, in the midst of writing my last lesson, and cleaning a toilet, and walking the dog, and…….. I can listen for the singer, and feel the beat of the song as my Lord moves me along on the dance floor, and as I look at no other but him – and I feel alive! Only Jesus can do this when life gets tough, and when my world feels too full. Only Jesus.
If you are feeling overwhelmed by your days right now, please feel free to let me know. I can bring your world before the One who knows how to lead in the dance, and sing you his melody, and give you his peace.
(The photo above was taken from a stock photo at: http://sites.psu.edu/nettiebaugher/wp-content/uploads/sites/9144/2014/04/ballroom_dancing.jpg)